Broken Endings …

Today will end my FREE video offer for votes. I thought it would be a great idea not only to give something back – like the daily photos I was sending out for 21 days this month, but to go even a step further – and give out FREE videos for every daily vote for the final round. After all, I’m active on twitter – and I can see this … you’re lucky if you’re even getting a “thanks” back from the majority of the girls you’re voting for – let alone pics and videos! This is not an easy thing to do. Not only does it require the hour to do my hair and makeup and the time to set up lights and the tripod and the camera, time to actually film it, then pull it from the camera, edit it, render it and save it etc, BUT it also takes time to actually send the videos. Time that I’m just not willing to give after today.

This requires being on twitter – pretty much non-stop on my computer so I can see who has voted, who has followed directions and sent their email address so I can actually send the video, or time to say hey, you need to send a screenshot (that’s not from 4 days ago) or you need to send an email address, or whatever the case may be. Then comes sending the videos. I was happy to send them out yesterday. In total, I sent out 117 videos (which frankly, isn’t worth the extra effort over photos considering it’s only 14 more than I’d been averaging a day by simply DMing a photo – which takes a whole 3 seconds) but whatever. BUT …. for those 117 videos that I sent out yesterday, each one took an average of 3 minutes to send (after fetching said email address) and often took closer to 4 minutes, but for ease of writing this let’s just go with 3 minutes. So 3 minutes each … 117 videos … that means I sat here “waiting” for videos to be sent for 351 minutes yesterday. Doesn’t sound like a terrible amount of time … but that 351 minutes totals 5.85 hours! That is a LOT of time spent – ignoring my family – so I can give something a little extra special – as a thank you for a vote which takes less than 3 seconds to do.

That being said … I know MANY of you, actually more precisely, MOST of you are thankful for the video(s) I’ve sent. I appreciate that. You may not have realized how much of a toll this was taking on me and your simple thank you after receiving it was enough to make it all worthwhile. Then comes today. I’m going through my DM’s and it’s one after another … complaints. I didn’t see your tits in the video – so I’m really disappointed – (UM … Had this particular person bothered to vote yesterday and receive yesterday’s video – he’d have had enough of my tits to last a good month!) Apparently my PUSSY isn’t good enough now? Hey, can you make the video longer? (UM … NO! Be thankful you’re getting a video at all when most girls don’t even bother saying thank you!) Literally … complaints, complaints, complaints. I’m the kind of person who can take a LOT before I snap … and I’ve reached that point.

Thanks to all the completely ungrateful people out there who can’t appreciate a FREE video … that was filmed EXCLUSIVELY for thank you videos that will not be shown ANYWHERE ELSE … I’m ending it here … today. No more free videos for this contest. I apologize to those who truly enjoy them. I’m just having a hard time justifying it after all the comments I’ve read today – most of which I didn’t bother to share here.

My youngest is sick … HOME FROM DAYCARE sick … which means I had to send her off so I could film today’s video – that is receiving criticism. It’s now after 5PM … and I’ve spent ZERO time with her today because I’ve been spending the entire day SENDING said videos … and right now I pretty much hate myself for it. I had an obligation to you to send them – because I said I would. I also have an obligation to my child … to be able to get off the computer and play with her or read to her or whatever it is she wants me to do with her but if I do … I’ll never have enough time to even get them all sent today. So who is paying the price? It’s not the person complaining about the FREE video, I can tell you that!

Sorry to sound like a bitch, but I’ve reached a point today where I can not and I will not tolerate anyone being ungrateful to me – when I’m giving up so much of myself – and taking so much of myself away from what matters most to me – my family – just for this contest – that in the end, I probably have NO CHANCE of winning. So for the remainder of the contest, vote for me, don’t vote for me, I’m tired of stressing over it. $2,000 isn’t worth the sleep I’ve lost in the past week. It’s not worth the time I’ve spent away from my family. It’s not worth criticism from behind a computer. It’s just not worth it, period. I could have spent 5.85 hours yesterday and whatever ridiculous amount of time I’ve already spent today on this filming new scenes – which over time would have garnered the same – if not more … my mind is broken. My spirit is broken and for my daughter my heart is broken … so I’m signing off to go cook dinner … and spend time with my family.

If you want me to win, you should vote for me. If you don’t, then don’t. I shouldn’t have to bribe anyone with anything to win a contest. You’re either a fan who supports me or not.

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Want a FREE Video DAILY ???

You read the title correctly. For those seemingly unaware, I’ve been in the Miss Freeones 2014 contest ALL month. Round 1 came and went with me landing in 4th place (despite sending out a naughty photo via Twitter DM for simply sending a screenshot of your vote – A DIFFERENT PICTURE EVERY SINGLE DAY). Round 2 will be coming to an end at 2AM (EST) (That’s 5 1/2 hours from now). It doesn’t appear as though I’ll move up from 2nd place where I’ve been stuck for DAYS now to win the 2nd round, (Also despite sending a naughty photo via Twitter DM for a screencap of your vote) …. which only leaves the third and FINAL round … which begins Monday, September 22, 2AM (EST) (That’s tonight/tomorrow morning for those not looking at a calendar!)

Since sending out LITERALLY thousands of photos in the past 21 days has not been enough to win, I’m changing things up for the final round. I will NOT be sending out a photo for a vote … instead, I’ll be sending a SHORT VIDEO – A DIFFERENT ONE DAILY – FOR EVERY SINGLE DAY THAT YOU VOTE FOR ME. What this means is, IF YOU VOTE ONCE PER DAY FOR THE FINAL 9 DAYS, YOU WILL BE SENT 9 SHORT VIDEOS! A different video every day.

Follow only a few simple steps and you will be sent a video – every day until the end of the month!


***Please take a minute to MAKE A FREEONES ACCOUNT. (This is very important because your vote will count 4x more if you’re a registered user. If you are asked to enter a captcha code, that means you’re NOT LOGGED IN and your vote will only count as 0.25 of one vote. *** THIS IS FREE TO DO!!!


***If you are voting from your phone … You may have to scroll to the BOTTOM of the voting page first and click OFF MOBILE SITE! ***

3. SCREENCAP your vote

***This proves to me that you actually voted for me. No offense, but ANYONE can SAY they voted to get a free video. I need to see the proof that you voted for me. No screencap, no video! AND … this doesn’t mean send a photo of a check mark. This means… I want to see my name/picture/ranking and that you have voted that day! ***


This is how I will send you the video! You will receive an email from with your downloadable video link for the day. I’ll be filming something different for every day … so you’ll receive something different for ANY/EVERY day that you vote for me!


*** This is good from September 23rd -September 30th when the contest ends! ***

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1 day 11 hours

I’ve been on “break” for 2 weeks. Back to my typical daily grind again starting on Monday. I took this two weeks so sit back and do NOTHING. No beach. (Not that weather has been cooperative anyway lol) No going out. No filming. NOTHING. Just lounging around my house cleaning and organizing and … relaxing. Something I get VERY little time to do. This two week break also happened to land right during the Miss Freeones 2014 contest. Cool. I can offer something NO ONE ELSE is offering … show me a pic that you voted, I’ll DM you a naughty selfie pic I’ve taken that day. Seems simple enough and seems a relatively easy way to move up to the top considering …
B. Over half the girls in the contest don’t even seem to be aware they are IN the contest. NO tweets. NO promotion. Nothing on the Freeones boards. Their names just happen to be there on the list … moving up or down or staying the same, they are there.

I actually had to fight to get INTO the contest. Despite being an OCSM for years AND being an “actual by the way” MILF … I was not entered into ANY category. None. Nothing. Nada …. Ahhh … the typical … I’ve been overlooked yet again routine.

But I was finally added to the list – albeit a day late, but hey, I’m good at comebacks especially when it comes to fans voting. If nothing else, I have VERY loyal fans and I’m thankful and grateful to each and every one of them. Without them, I would not be here.

Round 1. I could try for Miss Freeones which offers a $1,000 prize for winning the 1st round, a $1,000 prize for winning the 2nd round and a $10,000 prize for winning the 3rd and final round. $10,000 would be REALLY NICE (or $12,000 if I were to win each round) since I’m finally going to qualify to BUY MY FIRST home next year after taxes … but REALLY need to have more money “down”, That would make for a much easier house buying experience. BUT, I’m a realist. I have NO shot at winning that title. So, I’m going to try for the only other category I’ve been entered into … BEST MILF. First round winner gets $500. Second round winner gets $500 and the 3rd and final round winner receives $2,000. OK … so there’s a total of $3,000 up for grabs there. I’ll stick to this category, because hey, at the end of the day, every little bit of extra money I can have toward my down payment, the better – and since I don’t live in LA or really even frequent it, I’m not super high on the “babe ranking” on Freeones and when I have extra money, it goes to hiring people for my own productions. Of course, I’m going up against HUGE names. Even several girls in my own network – all of whom are technically considerably higher in their “ranking” on the site – because they’re filming for big companies all the time that are putting their links up often – keeping them on the front page.

End of round 1, I came in 4th place. A valiant effort I’d say given I missed out an an entire day of voting. Still very few people are even promoting this contest. It’s rather mind boggling to me. I want this. I need this. I’m promoting the shit out of it. Others, not a word. To each his own lol! Round 2 begins and same deal … vote for me … send me a photo proving you voted, I DM you a naughty pic … I’ve literally spent every single day of this entire month (and my entire “break”) on twitter sending people photos for taking a (literal) second to vote for me. I’m working REALLY hard to win $500 LMAO. There is now 1 day and 11 hours left (as of the time I began writing this) … and I’ve remained in 2nd place – never touching first place even for a second – which is fine, but I’m not going to lie, frustrating.

My sleeping patterns have changed over the last week. Awake at 5:45. Unable to go back to sleep until almost 7. Littlest kiddo wakes up at 7 … so I’ll be up from 5:45 until midnight every day now. I’m utterly exhausted. Is it cabin fever from basically being stuck inside? Is it this contest driving me nuts? Do I just need to get fucked? What’s the issue? Who knows. All I know is, things need to get back to normal – and NOW! I can’t be filming all day every day exhausted from not being able to sleep. Last night, I laid down at midnight. I closed my eyes. I tossed. I turned. I flipped, I flopped, I wrestled with trying to fall asleep until almost 3:30 AM. OBNOXIOUS! I LOVE SLEEP. I NEED SLEEP! WHY CAN’T I SLEEP!? So, I drift off to sleep around 3:30AM, only to find myself waking up every hour until it was time to get up at 7AM.

I know what will make me feel better. I’m going to lighten my hair a little bit. So many people confuse it for being black because for some reason, the reddish brown color I dye it, insists on showing up considerably darker on me. So, a trip to Sallys and almost 5 hours later, I’ve BLEACHED my hair, stripping the color out of it, added some reddish color (because I look good with red in my hair) and proceed to color it LIGHT brown, adding even lighter highlights…. now completely stripped unhappy hair, 5 hours and 4 treatments later, my hair looks EXACTLY THE SAME as it did before I started the whole process. I swear, I could cry! I get it. Today is NOT my day. Message received, now back off and let me try to enjoy the rest of the day LOL!

SO … with 1 day and now probably less than 11 hours to go in round two now, I’m not expecting to step up into 1st place. If it happens, I’ll be thrilled, but it is what it is. Best of luck to all the girls in the contest. We all have our own reasons for wanting to win (at least the ones who are even aware they’re IN the contest!)

I will be changing things up for the 3rd and final round. Instead of sending a pic via DM … I’m going to do something completely different…. More to come. Stay tuned… I’ll tell you all about it tomorrow~

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