The Full Story

For those who read my blogs and have followed me for even a little while on twitter, you already know I’ve been sick with an inner ear infection / sinus infection since September 7th. If you read my last blog you know it can be attributed to the insane stress I went through during and just before my LA trip – thanks to several people (NO – NOT ME) coming up HIV+ ….

My ear infection is gone (I think) but I’m still on meds and still battling the sinus infection. Why you ask!? Simply put … further stress. My body is breaking down on me because I’m going through loads of stress, plain and simple. Here’s the full story:

For those who have followed me for a LONG time … you know that about a year and a half ago, we downgraded. Economic times fell hard (and still are) and we could no longer afford the place we were previously renting (though it was my dream home) so we had to walk away and find another place significantly less expensive. After looking at about 40 different properties, we finally chose this one. We chose this one because we got a GREAT deal on the rental price – because it was a complete and utter shit hole. The people who lived here before us were breeding dogs and it looked and smelled every bit the part. The electricity had been off a few months and the fridge was left closed – with food in it. Toilets weren’t flushed and were dirty. The tile parts of the floor were BLACK – and every wall and ceiling area needed to be painted (many holes also needed patching as well). There was standing piss and shit on all carpeted areas as well as all throughout the garage. It needed WORK! So … we took an entire month off and slaved away last May from sun up to sun down with no electricity (because they wouldn’t let us have in on in two places at once) in the brutal heat cleaning the hell out of this place. Tile floors and grout – became gleaming white. All wall surfaces bleached and painted. Wood flooring – cleaned. Carpeting replaced. We made this place better than clean, we made it livable. We’ve been living here since. As each issue has arisen, we’ve taken care of it ourselves – as per the lease agreement. Hey … for cheap rent … I don’t mind buying a new (to me) fridge, microwave, washer, dryer, paying for plumbers as needed, etc. We signed a 2 year lease in the hopes to buy a house when it was time to move.

This past February, right after we did our taxes, we started the home buying process only to find out that no matter what we’d do … we’d be denied. As self-employed … they go by your net income – not gross income – and in being self-employed – you write off as much as you can … which bit us in the ass. Long story short … we need to file two more years of taxes 0 with NO tax write offs in order to qualify. OK. Fine. So we’ll renew the lease another year. No biggie.

Only three days after I got home from LA (sick as hell from stress already) … we receive a notice from the HOA (Home Owners Association) addressed to not only the landlord … but to current resident as well. So we open it. About 35 pages of stupid shit later it all boils down to this: Owner owes fees. Thanks to non-payment and them getting a lawyer involved – it’s now in the thousands. They’re pushing for foreclosure – putting a lein on the property to get their funds (which I’m sure as hell not paying for him!) We call the landlord. He explains that he owed $260 a couple years ago. Never paid it. Now they want thousands. Yeah pretty much sounds like what the paperwork said. He’s not going to pay them. Period. They can’t do anything about it but sue him.

The next day, we receive paperwork in the mail that the house is being foreclosed. Or at least the process is underway. Still not too overly concerned because I know that can be a LONG process. A couple years in most cases. People start showing up at the door hand delivering papers. More and more and more legal paperwork starts coming to the house and we figure it’s getting about time we know precisely what’s going on … so we spend 2 days researching “renters rights during a foreclosure” and things of that nature. Needless to say … I’m STRESSED out again about this. Obama passed a law that protects renters from a short notice eviction during a foreclosure. If the house sells in an auction to a person who doesn’t intend to occupy the residence, they must honor our lease. Cool. We’re still good til June. BUT if someone purchases it with intent to move into it, or the bank takes it over, we only have 90 days. (Still better than 30 or less – but YIKES!) We can’t find another rental with the same space for anything near what we’re paying here. Maybe we should just wait it out and take it day by day.

More and more and more paperwork comes. We contact the lawyer who’s basically going after the landlord. Here’s the full scoop. This place has been in the foreclosure process since 2011 !!! It goes to final judgement on October 8th … yeah as in 13 days from today. He’s not contesting it – so the judge will set up a date for the auction – which is generally 30 days after that date. OK … so Let’s say November 8th this place goes to auction and worst case – we have to move out by February 8th. That’s a shitty time of the year to move because there aren’t many properties available then … so we start looking. It’s looking like we’ll have to lose a bedroom – lose at least 300 sq ft of space and pay nothing less than $300-$400 a month more than what we’re paying now. Yeah that pretty much sucks!

So we’re just about to start looking at places when we find out that the neighbor (2 doors down) is moving (which we actually already knew – just assumed it’s another foreclosure since 10 homes around us have been foreclosed on in the past 3 months – and our place is next) Turns out … they’ve been renting it – for $300 more than we’re paying here – and it’s THE SAME EXACT HOUSE as this one …. so we go knock on their door. Another very long story short. Turns out, they’re moving out this weekend. Doing the walk through with the rental agency Monday at noon, the owner wants to rent it out again ASAP, and basically – THIS may be our saving grace! We MAY be moving just two doors down – into basically this house (where everything works well – unlike here – where the dishwasher has been broken for months – and the air conditioner is leaking so badly it’s flooded our closet and will soon be growing mold) … so keep your fingers crossed for us!

I will NOT be on cam next Monday at noon – because I’ll be attending the walk-through and talking to the owner and rental agency about possibly signing a lease with them – thus getting out of this shitty situation we’re currently in. Just hoping they don’t try to raise the rent any more than it currently is .. or we’ll be back to the drawing board with time running out~!

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Ketchup or Catch Up !? Both Are Good :)

If you’re anything like me … ketchup goes well with just about everything … but better than ketchup … is simply playing catch up. It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve written a blog. Probably because it HAS been forever since I’ve written a blog and the bad thing is, I end up wanting to say so much I may as well just write a novel. I wish I could find 15 minutes a day to play catch up on here AS things are happening instead of after 15 things have happened … making your life easier to read it and my life easier to write it … SO … I may just break this down into smaller blogs to to keep my own sanity! Or have I already lost my mind? No wait, that’s my health. I’ll get there too lol!

A porn performer, Cameron Bay, tested HIV positive last month. Industry moratorium for 6 days then ppl started shooting again. Since it takes me nearly 2 months to properly plan a trip to LA where I’m booked solid enough that it’s worthwhile but not so solid that I’m overbooking (you never know JUST how long you’ll actually be on a porn set! Could be 2 hours could be 16!)

Since I’d already booked my shoots and they were simply put on hold I decided to contact everyone again and see if those dates / times were still good. SabreStudios had to remain canceled because he’d already canceled his flight as well as the girls I’d be shooting with – so I had a full morning to try to rebook for. Everything else was still a GO … so I decided to go ahead and book the flight and hotel (mind you – now WAY more expensive than it should have been because at this point it was Last minute – AND I couldn’t get any direct flights at all – there or back – and I’d be staying there longer than ever before and my regular hotel had seriously jacked the prices – grrrrrr)

So 2-3 days before my scheduled departure time, I started to get a bad feeling. Not like oh no, I’m getting sick feeling, more like that dog sense … oh shit … something really bad is going to happen feeling. I’ve been fortunate enough to carry this instinct with me through life and it’s been a life saver – literally – on more than one occasion. But now what!? I’ve already paid for my non-refundable trip. I can’t very well call all the producers and say “I have a bad feeling” lol … so life goes on as planned.

20 minutes before I’m leaving for the airport … Rod Daily, another porn performer (and boyfriend of Cameron Bay) … tests HIV positive. WHY THE FUCK DID THE MORATORIUM GET LIFTED BEFORE HIS POSITIVE TEST RESULTS BECAUSE AVAILABLE? SIMPLE … HE’D TESTED NEGATIVE THE WEEK BEFORE WHEN IT WAS LIFTED. NOW THAT IS SCARY SHIT!

Now my stress levels kick in 100 fold and I have a big decision to make. The upside .. my first shoot is Solo and G/G only (an all day affair) with a girl who doesn’t really shoot … so I know I’ll be fine for day 1 …. but ALL the rest of my shoots (except 1 bj scene) were boy/girl and boy/girl/girl. HOLY FUCK BUCKETS! I need to recoup what I’ve spent on this trip – so I decide to at least go out and shoot my day 1 of solos and G/G and I’ll play it by ear on the rest. While I’m on set … I start contacting everyone and decide considering someone else may very well turn up HIV + … I’ll ONLY do B/G with condoms on this trip. Knowing this could very well be career suicide since they were ALL big companies … I send out the notice. Condom only this trip … I’ve got a bad feeling.

ALL but one cancel me (but are all decent enough to offer to reschedule for a future trip) – phew – career revived. Brazzers accepts to keep our scheduled shoot – B/G scene – with a condom – sweet … so at least I will have recouped my expenses to BE there. That shoot isn’t for a couple days still so I’ve got loads of down time. I continued on with my Blowjob scene for Vincent Silver ( which you can now watch at: (I don’t know why the “LINKS” aren’t coming up as LINKS – so I’m just posting it like this … I know there is still risk there … but MUCH less than invading my vagina with a foreign to my body unprotected possibly infected penis. So all is well … As soon as our shoot finishes … there’s down time … and Riddick was playing in a theater in walking distance from my hotel! HELL YEAH! Needless to say, that’s how I spent my evening!

It’s made it’s way to the day of my B/G condom scene (which would make it a drastically longer day for all involved – not to mention I’m allergic to the damn things – but hey – better to have to deal with that than other possibilities!) I get myself ready and head over to set. We pull up and still have time to kill so turn around to go find a store so I can pick up drinks and snacks for the long day ahead. I get a text from the producer. Shoot has been canceled as porn performer # 3 tests HIV +. Then I get a text from my agent “Good Intuition” … phew … wiping brow … I could have been on set with someone the day before who could be this person or could have worked with this person … emergency freak out avoided. I’m safe. I’ve not really shot with anyone. In fact, I’ve not even shot a sex scene since the end of July so I’ve got pretty much the safest vagina in porn right now! BUT … stress levels rising again … HOLY FUCK! I knew it! I knew something bad and wrong was going to happen on this trip – and there it was – in black and white on my phone – a THIRD performer is now HIV +. Scary, Scary,Scary! Before I get into anything further .. I was and still am pretty sure more HIV+ cases would / will occur. It can take a few weeks before showing and … I’ve heard there may already be a few more positive results out there – hang on to your seats – if it’s true, news will be breaking soon …

So the following day I’d already made plans to hit DisneyLand (and whatever the adjoining park is there) since I’d never been. David and I spent pretty much the entire day at Disney riding rides and checking everything out and just enjoying a nice day. It was hot … but I live in Florida – so I’m used to it lol! For those wondering, David is a friend and website member. We spend loads of time together when I’m in LA since he lives there and he usually drives me to my shoots when he can – helping out from having to hire a driver everywhere I go. Since my flight wasn’t until the following night (and I was already feeling run down for at least a day at this point) … another friend and website member (we’ll call him Handcock) offered to help me get an earlier flight home. It was MUCH appreciated! I just wanted to be home! Thank you to David and Handcock for being there and helping me out on this otherwise horrific trip!

Long story short … I went to LA for almost a week. I made no money. I didn’t catch a disease. Stress levels made me sick. On both flights I felt like an alien was trying to climb out of my left ear drum it hurt so damn badly. So of course I went to the doctor and had an inner ear infection (yep I’d guessed that from wanting to stab myself in the ear on the planes) and an sinus infection (yep I’d guessed that too) … so I’ve been on meds for a week – loads more has happened – and I’m still sick – so just called in more meds.

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Busy Trip Ahead

Tomorrow I head to LA … looks like I’ve got a busy week ahead:

September 3 – Fly to LA
September 4 – G/G and several solos
September 5 – B/G/G
September 6 – Blowjob then later B/G
September 7 – B/G
September 8 – B/G and several solos then flying home
September 9 – Arriving home

I’ll of course keep you updated and try to tweet pics and such as often as I can. Some days will be 12 + hours on sets so I’ll post pics and play catch up on emails and such as I can! Bear with me!

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