Broken Endings …

Today will end my FREE video offer for votes. I thought it would be a great idea not only to give something back – like the daily photos I was sending out for 21 days this month, but to go even a step further – and give out FREE videos for every daily vote for the final round. After all, I’m active on twitter – and I can see this … you’re lucky if you’re even getting a “thanks” back from the majority of the girls you’re voting for – let alone pics and videos! This is not an easy thing to do. Not only does it require the hour to do my hair and makeup and the time to set up lights and the tripod and the camera, time to actually film it, then pull it from the camera, edit it, render it and save it etc, BUT it also takes time to actually send the videos. Time that I’m just not willing to give after today.

This requires being on twitter – pretty much non-stop on my computer so I can see who has voted, who has followed directions and sent their email address so I can actually send the video, or time to say hey, you need to send a screenshot (that’s not from 4 days ago) or you need to send an email address, or whatever the case may be. Then comes sending the videos. I was happy to send them out yesterday. In total, I sent out 117 videos (which frankly, isn’t worth the extra effort over photos considering it’s only 14 more than I’d been averaging a day by simply DMing a photo – which takes a whole 3 seconds) but whatever. BUT …. for those 117 videos that I sent out yesterday, each one took an average of 3 minutes to send (after fetching said email address) and often took closer to 4 minutes, but for ease of writing this let’s just go with 3 minutes. So 3 minutes each … 117 videos … that means I sat here “waiting” for videos to be sent for 351 minutes yesterday. Doesn’t sound like a terrible amount of time … but that 351 minutes totals 5.85 hours! That is a LOT of time spent – ignoring my family – so I can give something a little extra special – as a thank you for a vote which takes less than 3 seconds to do.

That being said … I know MANY of you, actually more precisely, MOST of you are thankful for the video(s) I’ve sent. I appreciate that. You may not have realized how much of a toll this was taking on me and your simple thank you after receiving it was enough to make it all worthwhile. Then comes today. I’m going through my DM’s and it’s one after another … complaints. I didn’t see your tits in the video – so I’m really disappointed – (UM … Had this particular person bothered to vote yesterday and receive yesterday’s video – he’d have had enough of my tits to last a good month!) Apparently my PUSSY isn’t good enough now? Hey, can you make the video longer? (UM … NO! Be thankful you’re getting a video at all when most girls don’t even bother saying thank you!) Literally … complaints, complaints, complaints. I’m the kind of person who can take a LOT before I snap … and I’ve reached that point.

Thanks to all the completely ungrateful people out there who can’t appreciate a FREE video … that was filmed EXCLUSIVELY for thank you videos that will not be shown ANYWHERE ELSE … I’m ending it here … today. No more free videos for this contest. I apologize to those who truly enjoy them. I’m just having a hard time justifying it after all the comments I’ve read today – most of which I didn’t bother to share here.

My youngest is sick … HOME FROM DAYCARE sick … which means I had to send her off so I could film today’s video – that is receiving criticism. It’s now after 5PM … and I’ve spent ZERO time with her today because I’ve been spending the entire day SENDING said videos … and right now I pretty much hate myself for it. I had an obligation to you to send them – because I said I would. I also have an obligation to my child … to be able to get off the computer and play with her or read to her or whatever it is she wants me to do with her but if I do … I’ll never have enough time to even get them all sent today. So who is paying the price? It’s not the person complaining about the FREE video, I can tell you that!

Sorry to sound like a bitch, but I’ve reached a point today where I can not and I will not tolerate anyone being ungrateful to me – when I’m giving up so much of myself – and taking so much of myself away from what matters most to me – my family – just for this contest – that in the end, I probably have NO CHANCE of winning. So for the remainder of the contest, vote for me, don’t vote for me, I’m tired of stressing over it. $2,000 isn’t worth the sleep I’ve lost in the past week. It’s not worth the time I’ve spent away from my family. It’s not worth criticism from behind a computer. It’s just not worth it, period. I could have spent 5.85 hours yesterday and whatever ridiculous amount of time I’ve already spent today on this filming new scenes – which over time would have garnered the same – if not more … my mind is broken. My spirit is broken and for my daughter my heart is broken … so I’m signing off to go cook dinner … and spend time with my family.

If you want me to win, you should vote for me. If you don’t, then don’t. I shouldn’t have to bribe anyone with anything to win a contest. You’re either a fan who supports me or not.

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Want a FREE Video DAILY ???

You read the title correctly. For those seemingly unaware, I’ve been in the Miss Freeones 2014 contest ALL month. Round 1 came and went with me landing in 4th place (despite sending out a naughty photo via Twitter DM for simply sending a screenshot of your vote – A DIFFERENT PICTURE EVERY SINGLE DAY). Round 2 will be coming to an end at 2AM (EST) (That’s 5 1/2 hours from now). It doesn’t appear as though I’ll move up from 2nd place where I’ve been stuck for DAYS now to win the 2nd round, (Also despite sending a naughty photo via Twitter DM for a screencap of your vote) …. which only leaves the third and FINAL round … which begins Monday, September 22, 2AM (EST) (That’s tonight/tomorrow morning for those not looking at a calendar!)

Since sending out LITERALLY thousands of photos in the past 21 days has not been enough to win, I’m changing things up for the final round. I will NOT be sending out a photo for a vote … instead, I’ll be sending a SHORT VIDEO – A DIFFERENT ONE DAILY – FOR EVERY SINGLE DAY THAT YOU VOTE FOR ME. What this means is, IF YOU VOTE ONCE PER DAY FOR THE FINAL 9 DAYS, YOU WILL BE SENT 9 SHORT VIDEOS! A different video every day.

Follow only a few simple steps and you will be sent a video – every day until the end of the month!

1. REGISTER – MAKE YOUR VOTE COUNT!!!

***Please take a minute to MAKE A FREEONES ACCOUNT. (This is very important because your vote will count 4x more if you’re a registered user. If you are asked to enter a captcha code, that means you’re NOT LOGGED IN and your vote will only count as 0.25 of one vote. *** THIS IS FREE TO DO!!!

2. VOTE “BEST MILF” at: VOTE CHARLEE CHASE BEST MILF!!!

***If you are voting from your phone … You may have to scroll to the BOTTOM of the voting page first and click OFF MOBILE SITE! ***

3. SCREENCAP your vote

***This proves to me that you actually voted for me. No offense, but ANYONE can SAY they voted to get a free video. I need to see the proof that you voted for me. No screencap, no video! AND … this doesn’t mean send a photo of a check mark. This means… I want to see my name/picture/ranking and that you have voted that day! ***

THIS IS WHAT YOUR SCREENCAP SHOULD LOOK LIKE:
SCREENCAPVOTE

4. ALONG WITH YOUR SCREENCAP, SEND ME YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS!!!
This is how I will send you the video! You will receive an email from wetransfer.com with your downloadable video link for the day. I’ll be filming something different for every day … so you’ll receive something different for ANY/EVERY day that you vote for me!

5. REPEAT DAILY!

*** This is good from September 23rd -September 30th when the contest ends! ***

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1 day 11 hours

I’ve been on “break” for 2 weeks. Back to my typical daily grind again starting on Monday. I took this two weeks so sit back and do NOTHING. No beach. (Not that weather has been cooperative anyway lol) No going out. No filming. NOTHING. Just lounging around my house cleaning and organizing and … relaxing. Something I get VERY little time to do. This two week break also happened to land right during the Miss Freeones 2014 contest. Cool. I can offer something NO ONE ELSE is offering … show me a pic that you voted, I’ll DM you a naughty selfie pic I’ve taken that day. Seems simple enough and seems a relatively easy way to move up to the top considering …
A. NO ONE ELSE IS DOING THIS
B. Over half the girls in the contest don’t even seem to be aware they are IN the contest. NO tweets. NO promotion. Nothing on the Freeones boards. Their names just happen to be there on the list … moving up or down or staying the same, they are there.

I actually had to fight to get INTO the contest. Despite being an OCSM for years AND being an “actual by the way” MILF … I was not entered into ANY category. None. Nothing. Nada …. Ahhh … the typical … I’ve been overlooked yet again routine.

But I was finally added to the list – albeit a day late, but hey, I’m good at comebacks especially when it comes to fans voting. If nothing else, I have VERY loyal fans and I’m thankful and grateful to each and every one of them. Without them, I would not be here.

Round 1. I could try for Miss Freeones which offers a $1,000 prize for winning the 1st round, a $1,000 prize for winning the 2nd round and a $10,000 prize for winning the 3rd and final round. $10,000 would be REALLY NICE (or $12,000 if I were to win each round) since I’m finally going to qualify to BUY MY FIRST home next year after taxes … but REALLY need to have more money “down”, That would make for a much easier house buying experience. BUT, I’m a realist. I have NO shot at winning that title. So, I’m going to try for the only other category I’ve been entered into … BEST MILF. First round winner gets $500. Second round winner gets $500 and the 3rd and final round winner receives $2,000. OK … so there’s a total of $3,000 up for grabs there. I’ll stick to this category, because hey, at the end of the day, every little bit of extra money I can have toward my down payment, the better – and since I don’t live in LA or really even frequent it, I’m not super high on the “babe ranking” on Freeones and when I have extra money, it goes to hiring people for my own productions. Of course, I’m going up against HUGE names. Even several girls in my own network – all of whom are technically considerably higher in their “ranking” on the site – because they’re filming for big companies all the time that are putting their links up often – keeping them on the front page.

End of round 1, I came in 4th place. A valiant effort I’d say given I missed out an an entire day of voting. Still very few people are even promoting this contest. It’s rather mind boggling to me. I want this. I need this. I’m promoting the shit out of it. Others, not a word. To each his own lol! Round 2 begins and same deal … vote for me … send me a photo proving you voted, I DM you a naughty pic … I’ve literally spent every single day of this entire month (and my entire “break”) on twitter sending people photos for taking a (literal) second to vote for me. I’m working REALLY hard to win $500 LMAO. There is now 1 day and 11 hours left (as of the time I began writing this) … and I’ve remained in 2nd place – never touching first place even for a second – which is fine, but I’m not going to lie, frustrating.

My sleeping patterns have changed over the last week. Awake at 5:45. Unable to go back to sleep until almost 7. Littlest kiddo wakes up at 7 … so I’ll be up from 5:45 until midnight every day now. I’m utterly exhausted. Is it cabin fever from basically being stuck inside? Is it this contest driving me nuts? Do I just need to get fucked? What’s the issue? Who knows. All I know is, things need to get back to normal – and NOW! I can’t be filming all day every day exhausted from not being able to sleep. Last night, I laid down at midnight. I closed my eyes. I tossed. I turned. I flipped, I flopped, I wrestled with trying to fall asleep until almost 3:30 AM. OBNOXIOUS! I LOVE SLEEP. I NEED SLEEP! WHY CAN’T I SLEEP!? So, I drift off to sleep around 3:30AM, only to find myself waking up every hour until it was time to get up at 7AM.

I know what will make me feel better. I’m going to lighten my hair a little bit. So many people confuse it for being black because for some reason, the reddish brown color I dye it, insists on showing up considerably darker on me. So, a trip to Sallys and almost 5 hours later, I’ve BLEACHED my hair, stripping the color out of it, added some reddish color (because I look good with red in my hair) and proceed to color it LIGHT brown, adding even lighter highlights…. now completely stripped unhappy hair, 5 hours and 4 treatments later, my hair looks EXACTLY THE SAME as it did before I started the whole process. I swear, I could cry! I get it. Today is NOT my day. Message received, now back off and let me try to enjoy the rest of the day LOL!

SO … with 1 day and now probably less than 11 hours to go in round two now, I’m not expecting to step up into 1st place. If it happens, I’ll be thrilled, but it is what it is. Best of luck to all the girls in the contest. We all have our own reasons for wanting to win (at least the ones who are even aware they’re IN the contest!)

I will be changing things up for the 3rd and final round. Instead of sending a pic via DM … I’m going to do something completely different…. More to come. Stay tuned… I’ll tell you all about it tomorrow~

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The Way It Goes

I’ve been filming like crazy – pretty much all year long – as usual. I’ve taken a couple “stay-cations” this summer for 2-3 days here and there to take little breaks so I don’t get overly exhausted from traveling and filming and editing and all the other things I do every single day that aren’t adult industry related. FetishCon comes and I always take a good, solid two week break after to refresh before getting back into the swing of things.

Of course, it’s never really a “FULL” break. School starts back up. One of my kiddos has a birthday. I always throw a huge party. This year, I created an indoor and outdoor “backyard carnival” from scratch that took up the entire front, side and back yard and inside as well. Built all kinds of cool things which took a few weeks to complete. Made a “Plinko” board (not sure what that is? You can google it) :) Made a Balloon Dart game, Made a prize wheel (wow that was one difficult task trying to figure out how to make that from scratch!), Made a photo booth including a bunch of props for everyone to take pics with, made LOADS of games and hosted an amazing party with a house full of ppl aged 4-60 lol. Also during this time, our landlord decided hew wants to sell the house we’re renting when our lease is up November 1st and we had to show it to the realtors during this time as well. Talk about a massive cleaning project with 1 days notice considering I had party prep out the ass going on at the time! In the meantime, I got a cold. A stupid, sinus annoyed, throat on fire, heavy chested, balloon headed feeling cold – which I STILL have.

I woke up Monday, August 18th (the first day back to school and my kiddos actual official birthday) to not feeling great. I did my camshow anyway, and received about 10 DM’s on twitter and publicly written on twitter messages about how I look so old and I look like shit and I did a shitty job with my makeup, etc. Ummmm …. it’s not my make-up … it’s that I’m fucking SICK yet still decided to do a live cam for members of my site because I know many people are counting on me being there for my shows. I don’t think showing up is too much to ask when I can. Needless to say, I canceled my next weeks show on the 25th because I was still sick … and now it’s the 30th and I’m STILL sick. UGH! I finally get a REAL break – and I’m sick through the WHOLE thing! I guess that’s just the way it goes sometimes!

I’ve tried to do some “resting” … which I don’t do very well because my entire life has been go, go, go, pretty much since I was born so slowing down is nearly impossible for me, but I’ve managed to go see a few movies. I’ve played catch up on some shows on TiVo. I’ve cleaned some. I’ve organized some. I’ve gone shopping. I’ve gone to the RC car track several times and melted in the heat and humidity. I’ve not managed to go to the beach because the ONLY thing I wanted to do on vaca was go to the beach – but with being sick – that leaves me miserable after spending a couple hours in the sun, so I’ve skipped it. I even filmed a couple days last week! That’s pretty much my vacation in a nutshell. Sick, but still busy lol!

I DIDN’T consider when I canceled last weeks camshow from being sick that kiddos are home this Monday (Holiday) … so will have to cancel again, but I’ll be on again the following week – no matter how I’m feeling. Hubby got sick IMMEDIATELY following FetishCon … then the littlest one … then me. So he’s been sick about a week longer than me – and he’s STILL sick … so looks like I’ve got another good week of the crud to go. Ahhhhh …. here’s to looking forward to the next vacation and hoping my health is in better spirits! Colds suck!

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Little Twist

There’s been a little twist to update you on with my last blog post …

After having the guys come out and look at the house and talking to us, we contacted the owner (through the rental agency) after FetishCon was over and he has agreed to extend our lease …. we’re still awaiting contact to find out for how long, but we made it clear when we’ll qualify and about how long the process usually takes, and he’s willing to let us stay – at least for a while after our technical lease is up November 1st. I’ll update as I know more.

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Blindsided

Late Monday night, I was informed that an email had been received from the rental company we deal with regarding our house. Now, for those who have followed me for a while, you know I spent an entire month making a place livable then moved to the town I’m currently in. I wasn’t even there a year when we moved two houses down – to the exact same house layout – because the owner of the house we WERE living in … was losing his house to auction because he’d not paid the mortgage in years. (That house no longer belongs to him as it now has new owners – so making the decision to move when we did, was a good decision on our part – though extremely frustrating and bad timing.) The owner of the house we CURRENTLY live in … owns it outright so no worries. We’d explained before signing the lease that we will qualify to BUY a home … after taxes NEXT year. (Which means around February or March 2015 – though several companies still won’t have sent me 1099’s they’re supposed to before the end of January, we will officially qualify to buy the FIRST house I will have ever owned.) Our official lease was made to be 1 year in length – meaning November 1st is technically the last day of our lease. Then we were to go month to month until we qualified for a house, did the searching, were accepted, and moved.

And then the email came. The email that blindsided me and threw my brain under a bus (during “Hell Week” of all times. I call this Hell Week because it’s the week of FetishCon … which, don’t get me wrong, is fun, but it’s also FUCKING BUSY, for me anyway. I mean like filming all day – every day – for days on end. Late nights getting home. Getting up crazy early and repeating it all over again, etc.) The email stated that as soon as our lease is up, the owner wants to sell it. He wants it on the market ASAP … and intends to sell it. Photos are to go up the day our lease is up and someone is coming to look at the house Wednesday. Yes, by Wednesday, I mean today.

Well, great. I’m in the process of planning a birthday party for next weekend. I’m hosting a backyard carnival … and hand building EVERYTHING … so despite cleaning what feels to be ALL the time, the whole house needs to be cleaned, organized, dusted, vacuumed, bleached, and simply made ready to be seen by these people who are turning my whole life upside down. So, around my already ridiculously busy schedule where I’ve been desperately trying to play catch up as it is for months, I’ve now got more added to my overflowing plate. House was made presentable – inside and out – with thanks going out only to myself on that front… (even though the handle broke completely off the lawn mower – and we’ve not had time to replace it yet) …

They were in correspondence with hubby yesterday telling him they’ll work with us. They’ll not leave us with no place to go, etc. But let’s face it. I’m not a fucking idiot. I was NOT born yesterday. Their job is to sell houses. They don’t get paid if it’s sitting on the market for 6 months waiting for us to qualify, find a house and move into it. The owner doesn’t get paid for it to sit for 6 months – unless he held off on putting it on the market – in which case, he’d be getting the money we pay monthly. Now, I’d say, hey, houses can sit forever before they sell, but that’s bullshit. 2 houses down, a house went up for sale 10 days ago – well ABOVE what they should have asked for it – and it’s already sold and new owners already occupy it. So, I already know it’s a desirable neighborhood. I know that, because I live in it. I know houses sell quickly because I’ve spent the last year and a half watching houses on this very street flip in record time.

They walk through the door today. Immediately, Wow, it’s so big. It’s so nice (by the way, it’s not all that lol … it’s a home, sure, but I’ve seen better, I’ve seen worse) … This will be so easy to sell. Thanks that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. You beat my brain with this unforeseen news then talk to me about how easy it’ll be to leave us homeless, uprooting the kids in the middle of the school year to go …??? WHERE? Where are we supposed to be going? For a couple months? FUCK! Sometimes I just want to scream. Why is everything so difficult ALL the time? Why can’t some things just be simple … just once? I don’t think I ask for much. A place to call home – that isn’t falling apart – where my kids are safe – long enough that we can buy and move on our own accord.

Only time will tell what will become of this. MAYBE we can get them to extend our lease 6 months thus protecting us from having that happen. Likelihood? Slim. MAYBE, I’ll spend Halloween moving – AGAIN – as opposed to enjoying it with my kids. Likelihood. Much greater. Either way … I don’t think I could have been more blindsided by this and not that there’s ever a good time, the timing couldn’t have been much worse!

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Casting Call

My guy for Wednesday has canceled. I need a fill in. This is your opportunity to come fuck me and facial me!

When: This coming Wednesday July 30th (preferably around 12pm EST)
Where: Outside of Tampa, Florida (more details will be provided to the lucky person)

Requirements:

1. MUST be at least 18 years old with ID to prove it. Must be willing to sign paperwork and have ID’s copied. No exceptions.

2. MUST have a recent full panel test from http://www.talenttestingservice.com/
Not tested? If chosen, you can still test TODAY to get your results back in time.
Otherwise, no test, not going to happen. Sorry. Safety First!

3. No age restrictions other than being at LEAST 18 years old. No specific height, weight, body type, etc. I do not discriminate. You MUST, however, have good personal hygiene.

4. I would PREFER someone who can produce an impressive cumshot …. this IS a facial … and I’d like the camera to be able to see it!

Are you the one? Follow these simple instructions and let’s find out!?
1. Email me (don’t DM me on twitter, etc) … at charlee@charleechaselive.com
2. Include your NAME (or stage name), AGE, EXPERIENCE (if any) and 1 (ONLY 1) PHOTO (and I want to see your face/ body – NOT JUST YOUR COCK) …

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Monday Morning Motivation

I woke up this morning to a nice stretch, my littlest one telling me she loves me, and I crawled out of bed with a smile on my face. I went out last night, threw some darts, drank some beer, came home and slept like a champ. It’s an overcast day, not too hot but with 93 percent humidity as it threatens to rain down hard. Seemingly a great way to start the day. I relieve my bladder then strip down naked and step on the scale. Sweet! Despite having eaten things yesterday that are far from diet worthy (like the slice of chocolate cake with so much colorful thick butter cream frosting on it I could have frosted an entire cake I bake with what was on my little slice, and then dinner, I made up as I went along, with 6 Italian sausages cut into bite size pieces cooked in Italian dressing – and no, not the low fat kind – with an entire box of noodles and what was left in my bag of corn, topped with some shredded cheddar cheese – which by the way was fucking delicious! Keep in mind this was to feed the entire house – not just myself lol – and then after a couple non diet worthy beers followed by of all things, a trip to McDonalds for a Quarter Pounder and fries for the ride home – as it is a staple food on the rare occasion I DO drink anything.) I’d still managed to lose about half a pound yesterday. I’d consider that a WIN for sure … so I pour my cup of water (since in the past month and a half I’ve given up what would have been the ONLY thing I would drink all day – Diet caffeine free Pepsi) and fill it with ice (I am an ice eater – don’t hate me) and make my way to the living room. I sit down with my littlest one and pick up my phone and start my daily routine. I look through my emails (in Yahoo because my email website has been acting up past almost 2 months now so I’ve not been able to get into it) then I make my way to twitter. I read through the 18 or so posts that came directly to me sine I climbed into bed (it’s pretty quiet on twitter at night) …. and then I read it … the post that would rip the smile off my face and change my attitude about not only being on twitter for the morning, but about myself … at least for a few moments ….

“you were a little chubby right??” is the post that soured my morning. At least for a short time. I thought about his words before responding to make sure not to be overly waspish first thing in the morning considering I’d woken up in such a good mood. Let me think think over. I was a little chubby? Is he referring to some specific picture or about me in general? Is he referring to some specific day or month or week or year? What the fuck is he talking about? Now granted, I have been working and working hard at getting “more fit” if you can call it that. I’m making life decisions to better my overall health which in turn in bettering my overall appearance – according to some people. But I’ve NEVER considered myself chubby. And what is chubby? Isn’t that basically fat? Am I fat? Was I fat? I’ve not viewed myself as such so I dove in and made my response to him publicly while making sure to quote his original post to me. “you were a little chubby right??” “I never considered myself chubby but thanks for making me feel like shit”

Yep, that pretty much summed it up for me. So I log off of twitter because at that point, I’m not much in the mood to converse so I sit and I think. I’ve been in this industry in one way or another since 1997. Dancing. I wasn’t fat. I wasn’t chubby. I was thicker than I am now but solid as I could be. I was pretty young. I had my 3rd kiddo and got fat while pregnant and it took me some time to lose that weight, yes. But I wasn’t roaming around the internet naked or anything so he couldn’t mean back in 1998-1999. So then webcam. nah … I looked pretty fucking good back then. Which leaves my time while being in officially “adult” … so let me think … I’ve never considered myself “fat” and I’ve never considered myself “chubby” and I’ve also never considered myself “thin” for that matter either. I generally wear a size medium clothing. It’s often large on me and I COULD wear a small, but still feel better in a size Medium. I’d say the proper way to describe myself in GENERAL… would be more thick and curvy – though by thick I also never viewed myself as “fat thick” and you know what I mean by that. I was more solid. I had the legs of someone who did sports their whole life though I didn’t play sports my whole life. I was a cheerleader – but you can read more about that later when I finally get around to publishing my book hopefully later this year.

So here is a photo of me from 2002 … Fat from fat or even chubby in my opinion…. (though my hair was shockingly short as I’d cut it because my littlest one at that time LOVED pulling my hair and I’d gotten about sick of it)

2002

So then here’s me in 2003 … still not what I’d consider fat or even chubby really … just me being me … and my hair had finally started growing …

2003

Here is me in 2004 …. still not what I would consider chubby … I’d gone back to my original color of blond by now and this was an artistic body painting set I did .. these photos are ALL unedited by the way …

2004

Here I am in 2005 … still blond(er) … and still not what I’d consider fat/chubby whatever ….

2005

I think you get the point :)

So anyway, I’m only human. My weight fluctuates as pretty much every other person’s does. Sometimes I’m “heavier”. I like food. I don’t like to work out and for those who know even the slightest bit about me, I’m REALLY busy ALL the time, so finding time to work out means giving up something else (like working on an update, filming new scenes, spending time with my family, showering that day, etc). Salad is for rabbits, but I still eat it. Sometimes I’m “more fit” because I’ve made a conscious effort to live off of raisins, salad, bananas, watermelon and basically sunflower seeds. That happens to suit me at this particular moment. Maybe it’ll stick. Maybe I’ll get super busy again and “let myself go’ some … only time will tell, I DID give birth to my 4th child in 2010 and having gained 75 lbs with my pregnancy, it took some time to get it all off. Do you know anyone who ever lost 75 pounds in a couple months? Didn’t think so! But what that comment DID do this morning was motivate me on this beautiful Monday morning to get my exercise in early. I hopped off of twitter and got into my work out clothes and busted my ass working out today, so I suppose I owe him a thank you for the Monday Morning Motivation.

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What does the Future Hold?

A question I’m sure many of us ponder on a day to day basis. We know our pasts, we’re living our present, but what is in store for us for the future? I’d like to say I sit around and dream about this or that, but in reality, I’m so busy in the present that I don’t have much time left for trying to guesstimate what the future may or may not bring. It’s not happened yet, and at any given moment, we can have some life altering “thing” happen which would change it all up anyway, so as far as what my future holds, I try to keep it as simple as possible ….

I live in the present moment. Trying my best to take things I’ve learned from my past and using them to my advantage in the present and hopefully future. I try not to dwell on the past. I try to learn from it and move forward with knowledge I didn’t have at the time I lived whatever I went through to learn from before.

As for my future … I’m leaving that to time to see what is in store for me. What I DO know for my future, is a generalized schedule that I try to plan out up to two months in advance. Not that it always works out as it’s written down in my several trusty little calendars, but such is life. What I see in my general future … weekly camshows starting on Monday, several shoots this month beginning on Tuesday. FetishCon in early August as well as shoots leading up to it all week long. A birthday party for one of my kiddos and school starting back up in Mid August a day or two after the party. I MAY be filming a couple live concerts for a kick ass band … but I may not because it’s landing right about the time I want to have my kiddos party, so again, only time will tell. I also see another possible trip to LA for the week of September 8th. Otherwise, I’m happy trying to wrap my head around all the things I’m inundated with in the present!

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